so with a clean slate

i can just start babbling

i was chatting with a friend today...i love our morning ims...

anyway

we were talking about how we lost ourselves....became mom

where the fuck did jen go...

i lost myself long ago...

long before i was a mom...

i want to find the person i was in like 10th grade

my sophomore year in highschool was the best time of my life

i laughed

really laughed

when i am asked of good memories or fun times...i have to say

that is what i refer to

i was just me

i had a blast

people liked to be around me

i was honest

i felt free

and now ....

i have become the mom...sweats and a mini van

and dont get me wrong, i love my kids..

but i just want to feel free....

to feel ...

period