hello

no dont get excited
i am not back
debs recovery disks did not work on the old laptop...

i found some things out this morning...
well...sort of not this morning...
but feel like shit non the less
a little disturbing
i am a little frustrated and disappointed...
very disappointed in me...
accidental or not...
i did it
yet again....

no it is not drugs...

i tend to let myself down a lot
it is just when people believe in me
i fail them...and myself
not purposely
just stupidly...

i will explain more later
life so sucks sometimes