walk away

people never cease to amaze me
truly
why cant people just shut their mouths
honestly
do i really need the two cents not to mention the third and fourth cent too...
does that even make sense
lol
i geuss these are all life lessons i am learning now
just like i have my whole life
keeping my mouth shut and smiling
thats new
casue it is really hard for me to shut it
knowing when to say enough is enough
cause mamma taught me
it bothers others more if nothing is said at all
keep your friends close and your enemies closer
and walk away
just walk away
lol


im walking
fast
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see ya

well
things are getting funny now
very interesting
it is funny what influence family has on all of us
mean, evil, vendictive people
oh well
i geuss everyone thinks i deserve the worst or whatever
but i will come out ahead
it may take years
but i will....
lol

anyway
the point of this whole blog is to say farewell for a while
i am getting back into the swing of life
i am going to go to work
soon i hope
and in aug i am all ready to start school...
just waiting on financial aid
keep your fingers crossed

but i am saying goodbye
i cannot stand the fact that i talk on here
and all of you that love to come here to try to get me down, or say hurtful things or what ever you wanna call it...i wish you had the balls to say this stuff to my face
i do
but none of you do
words are powerful
they can really hurt
and for those of you preaching
maybe you should look in the mirror
you know what they say about people in glass houses

my whole point is this
what gives you the right
what gives anyone the right

not sure
but i came
i saw
i blogged
im done


i am leaving the cyber world....
ill be back though

melissa dettore

i got a blast from the past today
ha ha ha
it is so funny how the new kids can bring old friends back together
melissa dettore...
how crazy is it...
i love it
she sent me a wonderful card and an inviation to a new kids reunion party...AHHHHHHHHHHH
so fun
deb..you are invited tooo....
sometime in august...
lol
i love it
so good to hear from you melissa
and your card was very touching...thank you
thank you for finding me
we will all be back together soon....
ill be in touch

it is officially me....all me

well
i geuss he got his two words
like no one knew
yes i fucked up my life
should i elaborate
no
not needed
i geuss he wanted to make himself look better
if he would have read back
he would have known that i pretty much put all that out there
i am not using this blog to fight
not
i published it
i am not afraid of the truth
i am who i am
i did alot
he did not put all his truth out there either
not even close
i am letting go
of a lot
i geuss he needed to blame me for everything one last time
the finger is officially pointed at me
you got the last one d
lol
you put it out there...the worst of the worst
but you and everyone else knows i am not a bad person
i made a lot of bad choices
obvioulsly...
i am glad things happened the way they did
you hold a lot of resentment
i do to towards you
now i can say goodbye
especially of dj

where are you jenny penny

so i am moving forward with my life
i am sure there are many of you that think i share too much on here
stop reading now
infact some of you should just stop reading all together...


i am getting ready to travel a long long and very different road
i have made life changing decisions today and did a lot of thinking
i have to do the things i am doing to stay well for my children
and for those of you that think i never put them first
well...think of it this way
i have to put myself first right now
for the right reasons
so that i am here for them, my kids
i am doing everything by the law...
through the court
divorce, custody everything
i will never talk bad about my husband or his family to or around my kids
i will never deny them there family
you can rest assure that i have their best interest at heart....
i just want to move forward with our life
i hope that every one can act as adults and think of them first
practice what you preach
i will take responsibility for all that i have done wrong
i have and i will
and i am going to do everything in my power to stay strong for them
to make my kids proud of me
to show my girls that women do do this alone and can survive divorce
and do not need to be treated badly badly by a man
that furniture doesnt fly
we do not need to be put down
talk to like i was nothing
i am something
i am somebody
i am a mother
a sister
a friend
a daughter
an aunt
and most of all
i am a person
i made mistakes but i REFUSE to live my life with anymore regret and WILL NOT let ANYONES words hurt me anymore
i am sure this whole situation will get worse beofre getting better
but i have people too...
and speaking of
i got an offer to change my life today that brought me to tears
to get my life together
with a little help from a friend...
a hand extended....
truly touched me and means more to me than anything i could ever express in words
this is probably going to be the hardest thing that i ever had to deal with
i always wanted my kids to grow up in a house with their mother and father
but we just cant
and after sunday
i cannot
NO ONE
man or woman
will ever put their hands on me again
EVER

noooooooooooooooooooooo

NO MAN SHOULD EVER PUT HIS HANDS ON A WOMAN
EVER
NEVER
PERIOD

update

thank youcarrie
my old and dear friend

it is so nice to seeand hear someonecome out of the wood work

to answer you all who wanna know the little summary of my life
aint gonna happen
cause it can't be short
i should write an autobiography
i can knock your socks off then
but not now
i have had enough of drama
i am argued and cried out
and i am not gonna let anyone hold me down
i wanted this page so i could write freely
to findmy way
here and out in the real world and that i am gonna do
i saw a quote on a friends myspace page
......"people say that i have changed
i say i found my true self"


anywho..........


i have been enjoying my kids these past few days
we all went to kennywood on sunday
lol
i freaking rode the aero 360
and for those of you that dont know what it is...
it is this torture chamber that locks you in and goes upside down and around andholds you in the air for 5 seconds....
upside down....
yes
and not only before the ride starts do i picture the restraints coming loose and letting me fall to my death, but i do it every two seconds as my kids flash by me,waving hi momma....as i feel like i am falling to my death...
other than that we had so much fun...
i took my nephew on the log jammer...
we were all laughing and then that first hill comes...you know....the little fast one...
and he says
aunt jen
i'm scaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaared
the rest was all down hill
literally
great
the first ride i take my beloved nephew on
he hates it
me and abs rode the jack rabbit in the front seat
she is such a dare devil
she loves everysecond of it
as i held onto her for dear life
she rides with her hands up and laughing
how free
i watch her hair blowing
and laughing almost uncontrollably
how free
how young
how fun
we all had fun
lots of laughs
i loved every tiring second of it