well.......i need a degree

just got the call...
they are interviewing two more people...
doesnt sound good,
apparently they need someone with a bachelors degree to type and answer phones
my friend that workds there says not to count myself out yet
they really liked me...
just my luck
anywho.........
not giving up i have two more interviews next week

colorstay

well...


i just thought i'd share


i was filling out applications online...


and collin was peeing...


or so i thought








and he actually stood next to me, talking to me and then walked in the living room to watch tv and i came in....








this is what i saw










i said collin, what is all over you

he said mom
i just used your chapstick...


lol


i love him


oh yeah
and color stay lipstick.....stays!

please keep your fingers crossed

ok
i have wonderful news
i have a wonderful job connection at the pittsburgh houseing authority and it looks like i may be able to get a job as an admin assist
the starting salary is nice and there are benefits....
i am going wed
please keep your fingers crossed!!!!!
please

dirty dancing

please pause my music and enjoy the kids.............i dont know if any of you think this is a funny as i did....but wow....i crack up

they are all in their own world...

lol

my wonderful kids

i am not sure how it happens
but i have some amazing kids

i just got back from open house
and well let me first start with abby

mrs caterinella
just raved about her....
how she is coming out of her shell
how smart she is...
about how she works well with other kids and how polite she is...

hmmm....
wow

lol


that about does it...she is that..but where is the abby i know
the abby that screams and whines my name 478 times before my eyes open...
or the abby that wrestles and fights her brother...and sister


lol
so then we go to jareds
i was nervous for this one
i struggle with homework with him
i mean one sheet can take up to a half an hour
i open his report card
HONOR ROLL!

the lowest grade was a 72
that is a low c
and that was in math


but oh my god
his teacher raved about him
how he gets things, just takes him a little longer
how he raised his hand twice last week and asked to sit closer to the front..
how polite he is

and well,
jared is jared
he can be stubborn....
and mean
but he is my baby and loves me so much


and i do him too


and then we get to lily
lol
first of all
mrs caterinella still raves about her from last year
lol
and then
her teacher this year
mrs youngkin....
says how well she has adjusted to first grade...
how intelligent she is
and how she just gets things
she picks them up and is almost an independent reader
(which is mrs youngkins term for advanced)
and then showed us all of her 100% papers
not the lily that gives me the WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTT
when i call her name
or the attitude i get of her stomping up the steps


but i geuss my point here is we are doing something right
something i am teaching them is coming across cause they are totally different kids in public
in school
around friends
and i love that
that is when it counts
they can be crazy monsters at home....
and i do mean CRAZY
but they have manners beyond compare and are really intelligent kids in the real world

i love them
i do

they are the best

the tooth fairy

so the little snaggle tooth that was hanging...finally fell out
or should i say...lil ripped it out
it was like someone got murdered
i was doing dishes and she came running into the kitchen covered in blood
tooth was no where to be found...
we assumed she swallowed it .... you know
in the midst of all theblood
anywho..
we searched and searched the living room
then she says
mom
i know i swallowed it
so she wrote the toothe fairy a note....






soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
freakin cute
so she woke up the next morning and flew down the steps..
there was a little silver box under her pillow...
it held five bucks....and a note from the tooth fairy
thanking lily for the note and letting her know that she had retrieved the tooth
and wanted lily to give it to her mom to hold
and under the note was the tooth
lily was in shock....
the tooth fairy actually flew into her stomach and found her tooth
she really is magic!!!!!!!!!!!!

today i am at peace..........

i have realized that sometimes you are in a relationship for the wrong reasons
and i am talking about relationships with friends...
i have found that sometimes i stay friends with the wrong people
selfish
mean
backstabbing people and i just dont get why
why do i stay friends with someone that tried to sleep with my husband,
that lies to me continuously
why do i try to help a friend that continuoulsy stabs me in the back
i sat with my friend for three days
laughed with her
cried with her
she said she needed help
that she needed to go to rehab, that she lost herself
she felt that she was going crazy
i know that feeling
i felt her pain....
so i was there
not like this is the only time either
i am always there for her....
always....but no more
anyway
i waited with her
took her to the hospital
she got beat up.....she had her ribs broken and some other random injuries from her wonderful boyfriend...
held her when she cried of broken ribs and a broken heart
and then witness her turn on me
i dont know if it was to go back to him,
or to get away from me
but i gave her real friendship and she turned it down
i gave her honesty
i gave her my shoulder, my heart and my ear
and well
now i am done
i have washed my hands of it
no one can help this woman

no one but herself

because i dont understand how you date someone for two months, let him beat the shit out of you for most of that time and then want to stay with him
someone that has nothing to offer
that comes from a broken, horrible family
no ambition
nothing

i just dont get it
but i am done trying to understand
i am over this friendship because i am choosing to surround myself with positive people
i am tired of others bringing me down
not just this friends
but everyone in my life


so today
i feel a calm
a relief...



i am happy