dw

well....
donnie wahlberg
here i come....



and yes i will be in a size 10


did i hear laughing

ok
maybe 12



but not the 18 i am in now
wow i said it
yes i am in a size freakin 18
and i have to wear the xxl at old navy

now if you shop in lane giant....as deb calls is
18 aint half bad



but that is on ly because the sizes range from 14 to like 46
so an 18 in lane giant aint bad


no go to abercrombie....
lmao


the girls that work there are no bigger than my thigh
their WHOLE body is no bigger....


they try to not make eye contact...
helllo
a a hi MAAM

yes

i am a maam now

and the little bitch asked me what size i was looking for


is that allowed
maybe i wanted a mans sweatshirt


or maybe some socks



lmao


yes dear, can you please point me in the direction of the plus size abercrombie....


NO DEAL


anywho...
i always said donnie would fall in love with me if he ever met me, i mean....
psht ca
whats not to love right


i gots a little extra to love now



so deb

fellow blogger
i say we chart it on here

put it out there
weigh in every ten days
make a schedule....
together we shall do it



but it is the dam ice cream and why are krispy cremes so good and always by the register at sheetz

and how do i not drink pepsi


i have got to dig deep and find the will power to do it....

when i meet him i want like the slow motion
the room to stop
people wispering as he stares at me...
LMAO


aaahhhh haaaaa


as he takes my hand
my hair blowing...
tan
skinny and cute


and we live happily ever hafter




yes i know
i am 32 years old
actually i will be 33 at the concert



but its gonna happen
and i aint gonna be fat



oh yeah
i am looking for any takers for that weekend

October second
is the concert
so i neeed sitters for the day before, day after and the day

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


i still cant believe it....lol

and for all of you that think it really may happen
the hook up
me and donnie
yeah
he's on my list
its legal
number one in the top three


you know
when you get married, you have the list of three people you are permitted to sleep with..........
i have mine laminated in my purse
just in case i run into donnie
collin farrel
or matthew mc...









ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh donnie

WE ARE GOING

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH



WE ARE GOING
WE ARE GOING


VIPS

WE WILL BE THE ONES IN THE FIRST TEN ROWS
THE ONES IN THE MEET AND GREET



HOLY SHIT



I LOVE YOU DEB
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

one more thing

so i got it
i read the comments over and over
and i am sorry if i am coming off all pissy
but i am a miserable bitch
i am
and you all dont make it much easier for me to snap out of it


i just want to make one thing clear and then i am done defending my blog


I NEVER CLAIMED TO BE DOING IT ALL ALONE
I claimed to have an asshole husband
yes
there i said it
and he is not an ass all the time.....lol
and i did claim to be trying to get my shit together
trying to make a marriage work
and trying to be a good mother and house wife...

but i never said anything about our family not being there for me...mine or his

i get lots of help from you michelle
infact i think i thanked you in a blog of mine


and mom
you too
even though we dont talk much, i know you support me


and to everyone else...

wait

no

christ do i have to hand out ribbons or little certificates to let you all know that you are appreciated


i sit here and i read these comments from family and let me tell you
you can come on here and be anonymous all you want
i know who you are just by the words that you use

it is so sad that i have to do this...
i wanted to have a blog where i could be funny
or where i could vent when i was pissed off
and now it is being used against me
to keep tabs on my feelings

does it make you feel good to try to wreck this too
to throw your two cents in

i didnt mind it for a while
but if you are going to read this blog...then READ it
dont skim it

i love the comments good and bad
when they are about the blogs that i write
not the ones that you skim......

last day

so today is the last day of school....
i was taking pictures this morning
so i can have first day...
last day



jared is all like WOO HOO..
lily....am i gonna see my friends?
and abs...she is excited to be in kindergarten....
all of them came home yesterday with packets of papers
work from this year
journals
work from all year and
blank pages ....
crisp new worksheets to do over the summer


i think jared already pitched his...
lily's are under lock and key
she has started her packet...
only one sheet a day
and so has abs
the two of them ( the girls)
are already through it...


so funny
they are all so different
and all getting so big


oh well..
as soon as i get my computer working normally again
i will begin to post pictures

so i am taking ideas
for activites for the summer
i already am on it for the childrens museum membership
it is air conditioned and well...that right there sold me
we have aunt kaths pool....
and i will have to start saving for gas now...
zoo...........NO
i hate the zoo
it stinks
it is all pretty much up hill
and most of it is in the hot sun
so
the henderson clan more than likely,
unless bribed
will not be seen at the zoo this year
and we have the sprinkler park
other wise known as swisshelm...
we live there
i literally pack for the day
and park it
the kids love it
they can run and play
get wet
nap in the shade and it is free


so if any of you care to join me
that is where i will most likely be this year
the sprinkler park

i will either be there or haning out on the rankin bridge....
YEE HAW
summer is here!

i am almost on e

i am so frazzled
this blog was to hep me find myself
to write what i want
what i feel
and i spend most of the time explaining why i feel certain ways
i am now done
i am going to type happy shit
fucked up shit
sad stuff
whatever stuff



i cant stand it anymore
it is funny this way
i put my feelings out there
and you all....you know who you are.......
just use it as my weakness
an achilles heal if you may...


well watch out
cause i am on to you
keep your friends close
and your enemies closer....


i think that some of you are just mean
mean
mean
mean


thank you charlotte
thank you
you always open my eyes when i become blinded

it is funny...this life of mine
when i think that i am just getting to find out who people really are
let my guard down
to let you in
and you shit on me

i am done explaining
i am done doing things for you
and i am done tiptoeing around you

and stop using this blog as a way to communicate anonymously
tell me if you have a problem
and own your comments
i have the balls to put it out there
why dont you claim your comments
coward

from now on...i will put it all out there
the funny
the sad
the angry
and the pathetic

i am running out of emotion for some people
i am alomost on e
careful

90210

who is reading from california....
lol


please let me know
is that you nicole?

sex and the city

well
i have to tell you
i dont remember the last time i went to the theatre
The blair wtch project



and to top it all
i went alone

yes
lily had a birthday party at the theater and i went while she partied
something i think everyone with kids and a husband should do once in their life
it is dark
and quiet
and you are completely thrown into this wonderful movie...
it is a movie i wish i would have waited to see with deb, but none the less
Sex and the city is one of the most wonderful movies i have ever seen in my life
these women..the characters....
so wonderful
a movie about friendship
TRUE friendship


as samantha sat feeding pudding to a devestated carrie....
i balled my eyes out
and thought of you deb
you would so do that...as i for you
except ours would be a rudys steak hoagie or a slice or two from mineos
and we would probably not be in mexico...but still......



i laughed asuch as i cried and i felt good..
if you are a sex and the city fan..as i am
(never missed one episode)
this movies stay true to the story line of the show...the characters

i just cannot say enough

from the first moment it captures you and you feel everything they are....
and i to agree with deb...
my favorite part of this movie...
charlotte..
the feeling that shows through..
carrie sees big
and then turns to charlotte
and holds her so tight...
NO
oh my....whew
it wells me up just thinking of it
to feel for a friend...
to feel that much for a friend...
takes my breath away


i am lucky enough to have found it again
i can honestly say
when no one else is here for me
deb is
and i know if my "situation" ever got that out of control...she too would let me know
let me know the truth no matter how horrible it sounds
i know i can count on her for the hard truth...
whatever it is


she makes me laugh
we have cried together
and i would do just about anything for her
and know she would and has done just about everything for me


words could never thank you for all that you have done for me deb
you are my charlotte


love you